Nothing, Something, and Chaos: A treatise on human emotion

I felt nothing. It was a time when you were supposed to have a raging fire burn inside your heart. But I felt numb. There was a pit of swirling nothingness within that belied the fire burning all around me. Shouldn’t I feel? Shouldn’t there be a feeling where nothing reigned?

Nope, I had no idea.

I had no idea that I was supposed to feel something. What was feel in the first place? Was feeling an emotion to be felt in the mind, or a physical ache which was supposed to be borne by the body and not the soul?

With this thought, I felt nothing and something at the same time.

Something was felt when the sun rose from the depth of the ocean. Something I felt when mamma made me breakfast. Something I did feel when I saw my love smiled at me for the first time. Something I always felt when Life ran beside me.

Something I had to feel and something I did feel. I had no idea what this something meant. Was it meant as a warning that my soul was soft? or was it a warning that something was amiss and I had to rectify it. Was it hope? or was it success? Was it failure ? or was it abject despair the something was pointing me too.

With this thought of something, I descended into chaos.

Swirling inside within my heart and rising and falling through my chest, the chaos seemed to reign supreme. The chaos had no color and no feeling. It was just a set of emotions undefined just like nothing was. What it was I did not understand. But it filled me and ate me as I stood feeling nothing and meaning nothing.

What is this chaos? Why does it make me feel everything when I feel nothing.

Chaos is a feeling which fills the pit of nothingness. When you feel nothing, you feel everything and descend into the swirling abyss of chaos. Chaos is a product of nothingness. It creates a pit from which you will never rise.

Simply put, nothing feels something and descends into the pit of chaos. Man has no chance of escaping the pit except maybe with…..